When I relive the day.

Well to be honest, my birthday did not go as planned. I mean I did enjoy my self and the point of the party was met. I drank wine and a canvas got painted. I'm just going to leave it as it didn't go as planed. The weekend of my birthday felt like it would never end. Saturday, my parents came to visit me and my sisters and we did pottery. That was pretty enjoyable. Now it is ready Tuesday I was not ready for the week day to start and I was ready for the weekend to end. I wish there was something in that happened in between the two. My current location is SunShine Laundromat. My dirty clothes have been piling up for weeks, I got to the point where my pants were too big to wear. I always find my self to be quite inspired on laundry days; the days always are strange ones. I had to get up early so right off the bat my day doesn't go as planned. Then I had to go to a two and a half hour lecture in a planetarium only to realize that I didn't do the reading and you guessed it... a readings quiz! Then I went to my music culture class, that went ok I just feel helpless the semester. I wonder to myself how January can spiral downward so quickly. New Years went so well. I also forgot to say that me being a debbie downer lately I'm doing this little experiment were I see how many days I can go with out someone (family excluded) calling/texting me, so far two days strong. I find that super depressing, and yet I forgot to bring my phone to the laundromat and I feel so uncomfortable with out it. I'm sure no one is calling. And to be honest I feel that this little so called "experiment" is for one person in particular, but we will so how many days it goes on for. On that note I'm going to leave you with a song that I forgot about and it also makes me want to get out of Lansing. Well not only Lansing, but Michigan too.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kp7ekqTj9eo

Lose the feelings that are weighing me down

Recently I have been thinking a lot about what I want, and I have come to the conclusion that I only know what I don't want. I think it's sad that is the way most people think. We know what we don't want or don't like. Like when you are judging the opposite sex, I feel that most say what they don't want in a partner. I need to figure out what I want.

Friday is my birthday, and Thursday I'm having a painting party at my apartment. I always feel uneasy when I host a so called "party" I always feel like no one is having fun. Hopefully the wine will take care of that. I'm hoping that people actually show up. The one person I want to show up isn't coming, so that suck. When I talk like that I feel like I'm in high school. But none the less that's how I feel. The plan for the party is that I'm going to buy one or two large canvases and we are all going to drink wine and paint what ever it is that we feel. For my birthday my parents are coming out to visit me on Saturday. It should be a nice visit if my sisters get along. They haven't been getting along lately. It makes me sad too, because we all used to be super close. These days things just don't seem the way they used to be, or the way they should be. The good thing is that January is flying by and it's normally the worst month of the year. Bad things tend to happen, and my birthday never goes as planed.

I think I have started to make a Wednesday ritual, I'm going to wake up semi early (but still sleep in) and go to a coffee shop and work madly on my homework. If I don't do that I fear that this semester will really kick my butt! I'm excited for this semester to be done, it's going to be rough. If I want to get up early I'm going to have to get off the internet so, until next time.

Sarah.

Hola.

The new semester has started up again. I'm not sure how well, or how much I'm going to enjoy it. My classes are going to be a lot of work. On a good note I am looking forward to my music culture class. I'm eager to learn more about something I know so little about but love so much. As much as I don't think I'm going to enjoy this semester I am glad school started back up. I didn't do anything productive over break. I had the chance to hang out with people quite a bit, it was nice. I feel that I might get mixed up with wanting to be social this semester than wanting to do school work. What I really want to get out of this semester is make new friends. Ones that have similar interest and goals as me... I need to find them.